so for the past 6 weeks I have been going to meetings, 5-6 meetings a week. i had my slip up during my first week 3. this week 3 one of my ladies is in the hospital.
i say one of my ladies because she is an older lady from my church who helps out tons and whom i love dearly. she is like a gramma to me. just...someone who is tough as nails and so strong and has been through so much. i look up to her so much. she's one of my ladies. she comes to tuesday morning bible class. she helps fold bulletins. she helps with meals at various times. i love her.
i am so sad though. because she is in congestive heart failure. she has such a will to live. and this sucks.
i am so blessed i have been able to have her in my life. that she has touched me so much. but i am so sad.
7 weeks ago, i would have bought a bottle or 2 and sat at home drinking tonight.
but i'm not going to.
i'm going to say some prayers because i know i can. i'm going to go to a meeting because i know i can. and i'm going to make sure i tell my loved ones i love them.
i don't need to drink. i don't want to drink. or at least, i don't want to drink to lose myself.
a jack and coke sounds good. just for the taste. but i know i can't do just one.
so here is to my new love. coke zero with cherry and vanilla. thank you sonic.
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